Deep Thought

After a long weekend spent in deep thought, crocheting and movie watching. I sit back and think am I truly ready for the things that I am going to face this week and in the coming weeks and month. School starts tomorrow and I wondering will I be able to balance my class load against other things I am involved in along with things that I want to be apart of. Wondering will become addicted to coffee and miss the comforts that my bed gives after a trying day at the office. Will I miss the joys of drifting off into someone elses drama on television as I forget about the different things that plague me. Will I begin to question 10 over why am I doing this and I am really as smart as I think I am. Will I yearn for the comforting arms of someone simply to tell me it is all worth it.

I know the answers are yes. But I realize at this point in the game nothing else matters. I would give everything else up just to simply achieve at the highest level ever. I guess the hardest part of it all is not having my grandmother tell me how proud she is of me. I know that she is.

Am I ready, honestly I am not sure. But I know I am focused!