Taking a Deeper Look

So I will say right now that I am not a big fan of change. If I get used to something and the way it is going I am not one to rock the boat. But this 31 days is about doing just that. The first thing that I am being led to do during this change is address open wounds. A lot of times we like to say we have forgiven things or we are over things and honestly we aren't. Since Saturday I have been prayerfully asking God to show me open wounds or things that I have issues with. I will admit I have found a few things that I need to address.

Over the years I have placed a lot of different things that have occurred in my life on the back burner and I have tried to say that it did not bother me. But as I did that, I created some level of distrust for people. I made excuses or created logic to cover up my distrust. As I took a deep examination into this, I realized that I did and said a lot of things that were hurtful and destructive.

So the first step for me is taking a deeper look. I have sat down and outlined the key wounds for me in my life and how they were created and developed. I haven't cried yet but I will say it has been an eye opener.....