Unbreak My Heart

This past weekend while talking with a female friend about a vile situation that had occurred in my romantic life, my friend made the comment, "why do men do such evil shit, don't they realize that this is where bitter women come from." After getting off the phone with her I pondered on what she said. Her statement seemed to be full of soo much truth. But then I found myself thinking about the Katt William's joke about self esteem I was caught in an emotional catch 22.

As I looked at her statement I totally agreed, I was placed in a situation over the weekend where I was left feeling that N.A.S.(Nigga's Ain't Shit). I wanted to be drastic and go on a male fast till my well ran dry(lol). Enough nonsense had occurred for me to want to crawl up in a ball and just cry. Even wanted to blast a little Mya, Aaliyah, and the musical list can go on. However, the flip side is that I know that one man does not and should not define who I am or how I should feel. Futhermore, people only do what you allow them to do.

But as this week passed one thing that has continued to hit home is how we as women expect for a man to make things better or be your emotional savior. Toni Braxton summoned it up best in her lyrics, Don't leave me in all this pain/Don't leave me out in the rain/Come back and bring back my smile. But I think we as women forget that you can not expect a person to define your emotional state. Why are you expecting for a person to save your from your emotional lost or remove pain that they inflicted. I mean seriously. If you had SELF ESTEEM you should save yourself.

I am not saying this is the easy thing to do, I have been through hell and back emotional in regards to men. However, if he is not making you happy find someone/thing that will. After finding myself highly upset with my situation I went to the one person who could make me happy, my momma. I ate, laughed, cuddled, and talked with my mother. I also took time time out to spend with friends and family.

One thing that I found and this is just my observation women who are bitter have a lack of self esteem and have not dealt with the issue. Yes I will say I still a little bothered by the situation that occurred, however I won't let that stop me from smiling and enjoying life. More over it won't stop me from letting my Boaz find me... lol

But moral of the story don't look for a man to unbreak your heart, find some crazy glue and put it back together yourself! Allow yourself to feel the pain but don't let it run you into an emotional grave.