My Letter To Corazón

Last night after a long day of spending time at work and then church, I stroll home after dealing with a few issues. Make my way into my apartment. I quickly undress, change into something more comfortable, flick on the television and watch in my opinion one of the top dramatic doctors shows that have ever been written, Grey's Anatomy. A show full of emotion, ups and downs and a story line you can relate with. As I crawl into my bed, a little upset because I missed the first 10 minutes, I got cozy and begun to enjoy the next 50 minutes of the show. As I watched the show different emotions began to well up inside and and an out pour of feelings come.......

Dear Corazón -

So many things I wish I could say to you. So many words that have gone unspoken. The first being an apology. I am sorry.... so deeply sorry for leaving you emotionally unattended to. I have hidden behind work, family issues and other things that were minor so that I would not have to deal with you. I allowed myself to cry become upset when certain situations arose and even try to fix the hurt that was done to you by trying to change the past. Oh Corazón I am sooo deeply sorry. Corazón I took you for granted. I found myself lost in pain and hurt never allowed myself to truly heal. I broke down in the beginning and closed the door the next day. I never thought about how you felt just about me. So sick of hearing the same lines over and telling you the same things over. But it seemed when I said them I was hoping that they would sprout new life and give off something brand new.

I know my sorry could never clear the hurt that was caused to you , but in my sorry is a whisper of hope. A hope that things can be made right. Corazón I realized that if I only would treat you right then all the other things would slowly but surely fall into place. See after the tears that I have shed over the years I realize that peace has to be made. There are nights when I feel the fire burn in my belly, pushing to come out. I do not want that rage anymore. I want peace.

Yes I know it is silly Corazón that it took for me to see another strong woman cry for me to break down and write this letter to you. But it touched a nerve. I want at the end of the day for you to feel like ultimate royalty and like there is nothing better than you. After months of cry, I am able to say that you are my center and will be my center.

Please Corazón take me back

Humbly -

Yours